We are nearing the end of winter. This is the time of year when I notice that I am sitting on the couch for 2 hours a day feeding the fire and knitting.
I have a split shift. I get the kids up and and out the door. I get the daily chores done, and then I have a dead-time, before the kids get home at 3. During this dead-time, I find myself feeling guilty.
Should I feel guilty? Maybe. Maybe not.
Maybe I am actually getting 8 hours of work a day, just split differently. Maybe I am only getting 4 hours a day, but I got 12 hours a day back in July. Maybe I am just lazy and I’m spending all my time on the couch. The only way to know is to track it and find out. Only then will I have the faith that the busy times will come again. And even if they don’t, I still deserve this rest from the past busy times that I have a record of.
The only way to know if I am doing my required tasks is to track them. The only way to know if I have put in enough hours, is to track it. So I started tracking my minimum required daily tasks, and my hours worked. Now, I can go back and look at what I have and have not done, instead of “feeling” guilty. I often think I have done more or less than I actually have. Now, I will know if I am doing enough every day. I will know if I have earned some rest.